You are what you write..the return of LN

Well, I have returned from my hia­tus. I enjoyed my time away very much and wouldn’t you know it, I got sick soon as I came home. While I was away though I had a lot of time to reflect on what is really impor­tant to me. I say this to pref­ace the next blog.

I am a con­stant thinker. I am always think­ing about the neg­a­tives and the pos­i­tives of life. My life par­tic­u­larly and how I can make any neg­a­tive some­how turn into a pos­i­tive. I live because I am opti­mistic. I am opti­mistic that no mat­ter what hap­pens to us in life we can turn it into some­thing that can be a pos­i­tive influ­ence in the lives of oth­ers. Yes, I am a goody goody type who lives to do the right thing. I don’t pos­sess a cut throat bone in my body and I believe that every­one deserves their right to hap­pi­ness. This atti­tude is going to be reflected in the tone of my blog from now on.

When I started this blog just a lit­tle over a month ago I had a dif­fer­ent idea of what I thought I wanted to write about. I thought it would only be about my desire to free­lance and whether or not I could ever be suc­cess­ful at it. But as I have begun to really delve deeper into myself and why I write, I now know that there is much more to it than that. I don’t write to gain sta­tus or fame. If I did I would have quit long ago. I don’t desire any of that. Never really have beyond the age of twelve when I thought that one day I was going to be the grand sym­bol of the arts tri­fecta of writer, artist and musi­cian. Back then I thought authors were rock­stars that stood before thou­sands of cheer­ing fans while peo­ple threw roses at their feet. As an adult of course I know bet­ter.

Writing can be a lonely craft that can gar­ner lit­tle to no recog­ni­tion. For me per­son­ally writ­ing is some­thing I enjoy doing while my life is hap­pen­ing. I don’t base any hopes of ful­filled dreams on writ­ing. That is not a pes­simistic state­ment. What that means is I write because I want to. Writing holds a sec­ondary posi­tion in my life. I am not mar­ried to it. But as long as I am able to I will do it. Maybe one day I’ll even get paid a mean­ing­ful amount of money to do it. Who knows. But for now I am going to blog about the things that affect me on a daily basis.

Thanks for read­ing,